Them Guys & This Girl
I have been married 3 times
Some may think I am bragging or complaining. I am doing neither it is just a fact of my life
Where I come from I had heard & developed a mindset to make sure the shoe fit before I bought it...Huhmmm
So...I lived with some guys & discovered they are nothing like shoes
Husband # 1
I got saved in the midst of shacking
decided WE should be married so I would'nt be in sin
HE could have cared less about this new relationship I was developing with GOD
as long as
HIS comforts didin't change but they did change because I changed
I wanted to learn and grow & become who GOD said I was
I was brainwashed and actually believed WE could be better
HE said HE loved ME
and would try so
HE went to the alter and said HE felt something
then
HE had a strong desire to smoke a cigarette so HE went out gambling & stayed a week
I went to the joint to get HIM 'cause WE had an anniversary
I wanted to share it with HIM and I wanted to share GOD
but
HE avoided ME because HE had lost
Emotions Flared
I was sad and without patience
HE was mad and full of pride
WE stopped talking
and
the devil grated us a divorce
Sis Demetrice, I really feel you sis. Today was an emotional day for me although I knew this day was coming. I felt some grief. I know that the lord has shown me that I have to walk away from this marriage in order to stay focused on him and only him. The vision that he has given me for my purpose does not include the dysfunction of my past. I realize today that the riches of a full life with him is so easily mine and so deservingly mine. All my life I have felt I needed a man to feel that I had not failed as a woman. And in doing so I always made committment to unhealthy relationships for love. I would give all I had to this man and not receive anything back. My self-esteem is no longer wounded as it was back then. The love of Jesus has given me the fulfillment that I have always needed. Yes, I feel you. I see the blessing that the lord has put into SHHARE we as women need each others stories and strengths to survive.
ReplyDeleteSis Lavinia R
Thank you Lavinia & stay tuned.
ReplyDeleteI read that we overcome by 2 things:
The blood of the lamb
The word of our testimonies
Thank you Lavinia & stay tuned.
ReplyDeleteI read that we overcome by 2 things:
The blood of the lamb
The word of our testimonies
Very nice! I love your writing style!
ReplyDeleteOh yes, the Lord has a way to get out attention. Sometimes it seems as if it is a lifetime for us to get it. I tell you, when the Lord put my marriage back together, I have said a many of times "Lord you have some since of humor". But coming to the realization that it's not about me, I have to take the good with the bad. We hopefully learn and grow to know that what we do is for His Glory....we go forward Sister's.....
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